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WHY

01 WHYMended Wing Music
00:00 / 03:26
Sometimes you don’t know for years
That you were born onto a battlefield
A child learns to just get by
When the cannons blast and the shrapnel flies
The years go by and you start to see
That all is not as it should be
And with the wide-eyed honesty of a child
You just wish you could ask someone the question, “Why?”

​Why is he angry?
Why is she closed?
Why all this tension?
Does anybody know?
Why all the shouting?
What’s at the end?
The dance is handed down
And they do it again and again and again
Why? 

We’re a family broken and needing to heal
But we’re caught on this endless Ferris wheel
With the pace of life like a beating drum
Never slowing down to ask the question, "Why?"  

Why is he angry?
Why is she closed?
Why all this tension?
Does anybody know?
Why all the shouting?
What’s at the end?
The dance is handed down
And they do it again and again and again
Why?

I have found a patch of peace
In the backyard swing beneath the tree
And if the rain doesn’t pour from the sky today
I’ll slip on my shoes and get away
​‘Cause a six-year-old on a swing can fly
Far above all the noise, out of reach for a time
I’ll let the wind whipping by wipe away the pain
I’m like a little bird, I can almost, almost fly away
I can almost fly away
Fly away
I can almost fly away​​

MONDAY

02 MONDAYMended Wing Music
00:00 / 03:14
Monday he is sunshine with laughter in his eyes
I climb into his lap and he holds me for awhile
He’s playful as a brother
Strong like a tower
And God, I love it
When Daddy comes home this way
 
Tuesday he is silent
A cloud on the horizon
Slowly growing darker and we cannot ask him why
I know to keep my distance
'Cause I know the storm is coming
And God, I dread it
When Daddy comes home this way
 
Wednesday he’s a tornado
Pity those, pity those in his path
‘Cause one wrong word or one misstep
Is enough to bring down his wrath
Angry words rain like hailstones
A push, a shove, a sudden strike
Chaos rules for the hour
Until the storm subsides
Unshed tears sting in my eyes
‘Cause God, I hate it
When Daddy comes home this way
 
Thursday we must tiptoe
To maintain the fragile calm
Don’t dare show you’re still hurting
Or you’ll start another storm
He says it’s time to move on
To forgive and to forget
He pulls me to his side and jokes with me
He wants me to laugh and to smile
Like we did on Monday

SHE GETS BY

03 SHE GETS BYMended Wing Music
00:00 / 04:09
She gets by in her own way
She’s learned to survive from her earliest days
‘Cause little girls with tender hearts can get hurt

And so she starts to hide her heart away
So she lays another layer on
To keep her safe, to keep her strong
There’s no pain she has to feel
When she’s wrapped her heart in steel
He swept her off her feet with his smile
It was happy ever after for a while

Though she saw signs of his storm
She would not let her heart be warned
Now his anger shakes their home
So she lays another layer on
To keep her safe, to keep her strong
There’s no pain she has to feel
When she’s wrapped her heart in steel
I am a child needing warmth
And a hand to hold me through his storm
But she can’t let her heart be touched
Can’t afford to feel so much
She’s barely making it herself

His rage tore through our home again today (Mama, can you see?)
Left me trembling and small in his wake (Mama, shelter me)
I wish there was a safe place for me to hide (Where can I run?)
I look to my mother but I only find a wall (how I need a mother)
A wall (How I need a mother)
It’s like a cold steel wall (How I need a mother)
Where will I find shelter?
How I need a mother
How I need a mother
How I need a mother

PERIWINKLE SKY

04 - 05 Periwinkle Sky - The Ship is Going DownMended Wing Music
00:00 / 06:32
Summer sun shines
In a periwinkle sky
I’m playing in the backyard
Nothing here is hard
Because there’s rabbits in the tall grass
Eating sweet white clover
I don’t know, but it seems
Something more than sunlight’s warming me

‘Cause I am happy
There’s a peace about this place
And I never feel afraid
I’m free simply to be
Here there’s time for thought
And for honest conversation with God

Down here there’s no anger
Down here there’s no thunder
Of wounding words, slamming doors
Down here that can’t reach me
‘Cause this tree is like a haven
And I could swing all day
I’m singing into the breeze
Something more than wind’s refreshing me

‘Cause I am happy
There’s a peace about this place
And I never feel afraid
I’m free simply to be
Here there’s time for thought
And for honest conversation with God

Instrumental Bridge

Something more than sunlight’s warming me

‘Cause I am happy
There’s a peace about this place
And I never feel afraid
I feel God here with me
And if I had my choice
It would only ever be this way…

The Ship Is Going Down

Pulled in a hundred ways
God help us, the ship is going down
Pulled in a hundred ways
God help us, the ship is going down … going down
Tension from within, pressure from without
How can we stand?
Yeah there’s tension from within, pressure from without
How can we stand?

Yeah it’s every man for himself
Grab what you can to stay afloat
‘Cause the goal is now simply to survive.
Yeah, it’s every man for himself
Grab what you can to stay afloat
‘Cause the goal is now simply to survive

Pulled in a hundred ways
God help us, the ship is going down
Pulled in a hundred ways
God help us, the ship is going down, going down …

WHAT IT COULD HAVE MEANT

06 WHAT IT COULD HAVE MEANTMended Wing Music
00:00 / 03:12
What it could have meant
If she had come out from her walls
What it could have meant
If he had admitted his need
We could have gotten help, the help that we needed
But we stayed in the storm while Jesus gently pleaded

“Come to Me all you who are weary, I will give you rest”
“Come to Me all you who are weary” …
What it could have meant
“Come to Me all you who are weary, I will give you rest”
What it could have meant

GOODBYE LITTLE GIRL

07 GOODBYE LITTLE GIRLMended Wing Music
00:00 / 02:33
There is no safe place for you here, little girl
Not at home, not encircled among peers, little girl
So I’ll pack you away
A little more with each day
‘Til I’ve forgotten your wide eyed innocence

And there’s so many different voices pulling me along
And amidst all of the noise I have lost my song
And I’ve learned to play the game
But not without the shame
Of abandoning the girl I used to be

Tell me is this what growing up has to be?
Is this what growing up has to be?

POISONED FRUIT

Poisoned Fruit - CharadeMended Wing Music
00:00 / 06:57
I knew the fruit was poisoned, but I ate it anyway
A hungry, wandering girl
The path was named destruction, but I walked it anyway
A stumbling, falling girl
Warning signs all around, but I firmly held my ground

And You were there all along, saying
“This is not the way, child. This is not the way.”
But I refused to turn around and face the pain inside

Made a deal with addiction and thought I’d stay in control
A foolish, wandering girl
Found myself in a prison made of all my wrong choices
I was a hungry, wandering
Stumbling, falling
I was a slowly dying girl
Oh what we do when we don’t believe that we have value

And You were there all along, saying
“This is not the way, child. This is not the way.”
But I believed that my own plans could end the pain inside

Charade

I am living a charade
To belong in this place
Driven by an endless need
I’ve cast aside the real me
And now I’m like a ship without an anchor

I see myself going wrong
Doing things I never would have done
Grasping for the fleeting moment
This feeling of belonging
But it never lasts for long, never lasts for long

And we’re all cast adrift on this sea
Tell me are you as empty as me?
Does anyone here have real love to give?
I’m finding out the hard way
This is no way to live …

We hurt each other in the desperate climb
Racing to the top only to find
That this game has no winners

And I am cast adrift on this sea
God above can you still hear me
I’ve learned the hard way what
You told me all along
That this is no way … this is no way to live
So I’m walking away
I’m out of the game
And I’m leaving the charade ...

FRAGILE FLOWER

10 FRAGILE FLOWERMended Wing Music
00:00 / 02:47
Catching my first glimpse of freedom
Peace blowing like a gentle breeze on me
I lift my head to drink the light in
The warmth of Your love starts to wake the real me

And I’m like a fragile flower
Opening her petals to the sky
Soaking up all the life I can
Trying hard to leave the past behind me

But how do I turn over this new leaf
When my roots are tangled in so many lies?
How do I turn over this new leaf
When I’m broken inside?

Trying to hold on to freedom
But I feel this peace slipping through my fingers
I hang my head with each failure
‘Cause I simply can’t believe that You could still love me

And I’m like a fragile flower
Closing her petals to the sky
I gave it everything I had
But the past would not remain behind me
Behind me …

TRYING HARD

11 TRYING HARDMended Wing Music
00:00 / 01:41
I’m trying to make you happy
But time and again I’m failing
I’m trying to be worthy
But God, I keep stumbling
I see the rules, I see the lines
I’m trying hard to stay inside
Those same old stones I stumble on
And soon I’m falling headlong down
Into the grip of despair
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“Child, it’s never been up to you
It’s not about what you can do
No, it’s about what I can do through you
Place your broken life in My hands
And know I have a plan
And that I will see you through" ….

TRANSITIONAL CHARACTERS

12 TRANSITIONAL CHARACTERSMended Wing Music
00:00 / 03:16
Looking back over my family tree
I wonder does it always have to be
That the heartache of one generation
Is passed on to the next generation
To go on endlessly?
So I took a look at psychology
To see if it held any hope for me
I turned my eyes to the earthly sages
College books and dusty pages
To see what I could see
And the words leapt off the page at me
They said some people do break free
From the damaging cycle handed down
And they do it by depending on a “higher power”

Then and there in my chair I whispered a prayer
“God let that be me …
I don’t want to pass on the same heartache
That was handed down to me …
But only You can set me free …”

So let the change begin in me, Lord
Let the change begin
Oh let the change begin in me, Lord … let the change begin in me

THE VINEYARD SONG

13 THE VINEYARD SONGMended Wing Music
00:00 / 03:11
I didn’t deserve it and I didn’t earn it
But you poured Your love out over me like a torrent
I came to You broken and desperately weary
And in my shame I was just so amazed You’d come near me
The God of heaven bending down
To lift His broken daughter up off of the ground
The Heart of heaven wept over me
For all the wrongs I’d done and the wrongs done to me
And that was the moment when things began to change
Love broke through that day, and I’ve never been the same
That was the moment when things began to change
Love broke through that day, and I’ve never been the same

Jesus, You are that shelter that I have been longing for all my life
And Jesus, Your love is that one thing that I have been hungering for all my life
And all the other things I tried
Certain they would satisfy
Pale in comparison with You
You’re the feast I’ve hungered for
You’re the light, the open door
Take, take this lifeI give to You
I’m not my own
I entrust my life to You

SOMETIMES SOMEONE

14 SOMETIMES SOMEONEMended Wing Music
00:00 / 01:05
Sometimes someone shines their light
Into the darkened room
That you have been stumbling through
And you see things so much clearer
Than you’ve ever seen before
There’s broken glass on the floor
The windows are boarded up
But there is an open door
And now you have a choice….
And now you have a choice…

Healing

We come at life with different eyes
And it makes for interesting conversation
And we all have our own bag of lies it seems we’ve acquired
Through life’s education
Through life’s education

Life’s deepest pains can leave a stain
That shades how we live our lives
How we feel inside
Healing only comes when the lie is undone
By the One who came to bring salvation
He came to bring salvation

So tell Him your story, the grime and the glory
He wants to know what’s made you laugh and what’s made you cry
Oh, He sees your heart anyway
So there’s nothing you cannot say
And tell Him your anger, the fears and the pain
Oh, He longs to heal those places where you have died inside
Let Him hold you and cry with you
And let Him bring life to you

Healing can come …
Healing can come
No matter how deep the pain …
No matter how deep the stain
No matter how deep the pain …
Healing can come

HOPE AFTER TEARS

16 HOPE AFTER TEARSMended Wing Music
00:00 / 02:01
Piano Instrumental

YOU WERE THERE ALL ALONG

17 YOU WERE THERE ALL ALONGMended Wing Music
00:00 / 02:01
I can see that I was wrong
All those years ago
Losing myself and my song
Believing there was no safe place
When you were there all along

God, I know I broke Your heart
Time and time again
Running deeper in the dark
Believing there was no safe place
When you were there all along
You were there all along

HOW FAR DO YOU WANT TO GO

18 HOW FAR DO WANT TO GOMended Wing Music
00:00 / 03:58
Dark yesterdays are rolling away
The morning light dawns on a new day
New life is flowing in me
This path stretches far beyond what I can see
Distant horizons beckoning me

But how far can I go? (How far do you want to go?)
I’ve never been down this road (How far do you want to go?)
Jesus with Your hand holding me I’ll go as far …
As far as You lead me

Everything around me feels more alive
Hope’s casting the whole world in a new light
I’m like a bird You set free
Taking new flight on my mended wings
Distant horizons are beckoning me

But how far can I go? (How far do you want to go?)
I’ve never been down this road (How far do you want to go?)
Jesus with Your hand holding me I’ll go as far …
As far as You lead me

GLAD TO BE ALIVE

19 GLAD TO BE ALIVEMended Wing Music
00:00 / 01:53
Guitar Instrumental

FORGIVENESS

20 - 21 FORGIVENESS - PATH OF PEACEMended Wing Music
00:00 / 04:25
I have walked over the battlefields of yesterday
Amid the rubble I’ve remembered and grieved the pain
I’ve taken time to let the memories break their silence
Now I’m moving toward a place of forgiveness

Forgiveness doesn’t mean I’m justifying what was done
‘Cause it’s okay to call a wrong a wrong
Forgiveness doesn’t mean I let abuse go on today
‘Cause sometimes truest love must say “no”

We have each made our wrong choices and suffered pain
At our feet lay broken pieces of yesterday
I forgive you for the wrongs that you did to me
Will you forgive me for the wrongs that I did to you?

Forgiveness means that we release the debt that’s owed to us
And trust in God that He will heal the loss
Forgiveness frees you and me both from yesterday
So we can move forward into hope … hope

Jesus you forgave, so I forgive, too … (repeat)
Daddy, I forgive you
Mama, I forgive you

Path of Peace

I have found the path of peace
Surrendering to You completely
Your Spirit guides me day by day
I don’t have to fear ‘cause You are the way
I was a six year old when I tasted peace
Like a treasure I didn’t know how to keep
But You stayed beside me for all these days
Now You’ve brought me to this wide open place
Where Your peace abides always
It’s a wide open place, where Your peace abides always

AFTER ALL

22 AFTER ALLMended Wing Music
00:00 / 01:23
After all
Is my story so different from yours?
We all have scars
Each of us has been touched by the fall
And the choices that other people made
May have colored and shaped our early days
But thank God there comes to each of us a time
When we realize that “now the choice is mine”
After all

YOU WERE WORTH PROTECTING

23 YOU WERE WORTH PROTECTINGMended Wing Music
00:00 / 04:28
You were worth protecting
And someone should have said so
They should have put their foot down
A long time ago
‘Cause you were worth protecting
And Jesus died to say so
He came and laid His life down
So you could know
That you were worth protecting

And the Spirit of the Lord was upon Him
To bring good news to the afflicted
To bind up the brokenhearted
And set the captives free
And the Spirit of the Lord was upon Him
To bring good news to the afflicted
To bind up the brokenhearted
And set the captives free
That’s you and me, That’s you and me

And when He died upon the cross
He was reaching down to us, the hopeless ones
He was the pure and spotless Lamb
Suffered violence at their hands, He understands
And when He rose up from the grave
He blazed a trail that breaks the endless downward cycle
We go from bent and broken reeds, to thriving growing trees
Oaks of righteousness

We’re sons and daughters
Lift up your heads and see
A loving Father smiling on you
We’ve been adopted into His family
Step into your new inheritance
Step into your new inheritance … today

You were worth protecting
And someone should have said so
They should have put their foot down
A long time ago
‘Cause You were worth protecting
And Jesus lives to say so
He sent His Holy Spirit
So you can know the way
We can know the way …
We can know the way

LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE

24 LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONEMended Wing Music
00:00 / 03:46
Oh, look what You’ve done
Look what You’ve done
You have made me whole
Made me whole
Oh, look what You’ve done
Look what You’ve done
You have made me whole
Made me whole

You raise up from ashes the souls who are wounded
And from scattered fragments You fashion a masterpiece
Your grace is displayed on the wings You have mended
With hearts made whole the redeemed are singing
The redeemed are singing…

Oh, look what You’ve done
Look what You’ve done
You have made me whole … made me whole
Oh, look what You’ve done … look what You’ve done
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